Thursday, June 25, 2009

In love with my God.

Recently I had a very close conversation with God. Everyone seemed to be working against me. Having being unemployed for almost three months finances were bad. Debts were increasing and I was not in a position to do my duties as I wanted. Things at personal front also seemed not to be in my favour. My conversations with God increased and I started falling in love with him as there was something very positive. During these constant conversations I put forward a request to meet him as all seemed virtual.

Soon I started feeling God and the virtual started turning to reality. Whenever I shared my problems, God just smiled and said "Take care of yourself and I will take care of everything. When I asked God how am I going to repay for everything he has done. God only smiled and said “You just love others with compassion, humility and identify love with all and everything will come back to me. He said "Don’t to let any of my words fall on the ground. Let it seep through the fertile heart and reap a harvest of love and joy." These words are still resonating within me with a question what if I fail to repay and at the same time gave me an inspiration to move forward with love and a more positive energy and commitment from my soul.

This is not something new or what we have never experienced. Even before we are born we are in constant conversation with the outside world and the strong vibrations resonating from our mothers touch puts our mind to rest. This conversation becomes more evident and loud the moment we step into this world. They become more frequent and cluttered as we move ahead in life. Things start becoming blurred when we start comparing ourselves with others at the time focused it we look within ourselves.

We are happy the moment things come in our favour and we take pride in our merits and fail to thank God. If things don’t work out in our favour we are upset and conveniently blame it on our destiny. The easier thing to satisfy our ego would be to blame it on others or question God. It is ironical we call him Almighty and still doubt his justice.

Have we ever realised that if everything starts coming our way then we are in the wrong track. Have we failed to realise that we were born out of nothing yet we have a much deeper and unconditional commitment to fulfil our duties towards our own self and others without expectations. If this may be true then what we have to lose. Everything we have with us today is all what we have gained. This is karma, a commitment which steers our life in a particular direction, towards a particular goal which is always positive as it is predefined by God. This goal is virtual and can be termed realistic only if we are contended with the result.

During this course we meet many people during our course of journey. Some bad some good. Some are with us for a moment, some for a short while and some for a longer time. Each one is sent by God for a specific purpose and a particular reason, as angels of god to be with us. If we look back and analyse even our bad or the worst situations, as we felt, were for a purpose to guide us or perhaps teach us something new. It is we who chose what to take and what to leave and if it was our choice why don’t we take the responsibility for what we are today. If we have not gained anything, we can’t deny that they have certainly made us wise.

We all know there are not accidents in this universe. God has no favourites. Every fruit we eat has to be peeled before we enjoy and he gives everyone what they deserve. This is Karma. He also shows us the path of Dharma which is inevitable. It is we who make this process complicated by comparing. It depends on us to choose to be contended by having been gifted with what others don’t have or remain in a conflict and unhappy by choosing to look at what others have without making an positive and measurable effort to do our duties.

If we have to blame God then why we go to bed with plans for tomorrow when we have no assurance to wake up alive the next morning. A young baby does not question you when you throw him in the air, but just laughs because he trust you and knows you will catch him.

I would like to share which was sent by one of my friend “Once, all villagers decided to pray for rain. On the day of the prayer all people gathered and only one boy came with an umbrella". This is faith.
Thank god for everything what I have today and love you for being with me today as this is the only true spirit to give oneself a loving identification and implicit obedience of spiritual injunctions.

2 comments:

Sapna said...

So true.

Ritu Kalia said...

so beautifully explained .... simple yet with so much of depth.....